There
are days when I feel like I have stepped back in time. This time last year our
hurried morning conversations revolved all around train times (pick a time,
add 20 minutes then add a bit more to account for SW Trains delays), nursery
pick-ups (me or you?) and any meetings that day which were likely to overrun
and therefore throw all of the above into a total, panicked chaos. Nowadays
the conversation is more likely to go along the lines of “Have you
fed/watered/checked the dog/cat/hens/chicks/sheep/tomatoes/carrots/children?
Should we really be planting peas on a new moon? Did you know there is a Gloucester
Old Spot market in town next week?” in manner of harridan 19thcentury
farmer’s wife. Whereas my days used to be ordered by the hourly ping of
Microsoft Outlook telling me which delightful client I was to meet with next or
which teleconference number to dial into, our days are now broadly divided into
‘light o’clock’ and ‘dark o’clock’, punctuated only by the blood-curdling
shrieks of ‘milk o’clock’ from my three month old daughter. Each day starts
with roughly the same slow rising sense of panic as we huddle in front of the
ever-expanding To Do list on the whiteboards in the office (you can take the
girl out of the City but you can’t take the City out of the girl!). There
follows some sort of vague prioritisation based on a) the weather b) energy
levels and c) number of toddler tantrums already thrown that morning. It’s then just crack on and get
as much physically done as you can before dark o’clock. Job done (or not, as is
more often the case).
You can take the girl out of the City... |
Once
you’re out there, it’s very easy to lose track of time. Head down, knee deep in
weeds with only the worms and the songbirds for company, you could be forgiven
for thinking that you were living a generation ago. The only thing to remind me
I’m in the 21st century are the Hawk T1A fighter jets that pass at Mach
1.15 through the mountains at pretty much my eye level or the Airbus Beluga
A300-600ST en route to the factory in Broughton (oh yes, I am a self-confessed geeky
plane spotter and these two little beauties are a definite highlight of living
here for me!). Then you hear the shrill whistle of the steam train that has
just been reinstated at the local station and you are brought back to your 19th
century reverie with a jolt.
Not my photo,obviously |
Nor this one |
Continuing
our journey back in time, we had a surprise visit this week from a lovely lady called
Mary who was actually born in our house in 1945 and grew up here farming the
land with her parents. Clutching a handful of sepia toned photographs (the real
deal for once, not your phoney Instagram ones) she gave us a guided history
tour of our own house (very cool), pointing out the old snug where dear Uncle Fred
was sitting to watch the 1953 Royal Coronation and the former scullery where
old Aunt Mabel got her tit caught in the mangle and so on and so forth. It
seems the cold store is pretty much the only part of the house which has not
been knocked about by its subsequent residents. It was fascinating to hear that
the room we now use to stockpile baked beans from the Cash & Carry (such is
our faith in our own ability to be self-sufficient) and keep our beers cold was
where they used to hide on the day that the pigs were slaughtered. Lovely
little heart-warming stories like this (!) are what makes us feel a great sense
of responsibility and honour in our humble attempts to restore some of the
former greatness of the place: like
resurrecting the old vegetable patch and bringing back the hens and the pigs (we
hope). It is also a timely reminder that
as we start to make our renovation plans we need to keep one eye firmly on the
past as well as bringing the place into the 21st century.
Watch out for the old mangle |
This visit also made us realise that our quest to ‘live from the land’ in this day and age is a lifestyle choice made from a position of relative luxury, whereas in Mary’s parents’ day it would have been done out of pure necessity. So is the concept of self-sufficiency desperately outmoded when even in remote Wales you can nowadays buy pretty much everything you need – even pomegranates and soya milk?! Why beast yourself so hard for months when you can just nip to Sainsbury’s (other supermarkets are available) and buy anything you could possibly grow or raise or make yourself? It’s not just about the cost or the taste or the fact it’s organic or that you can guarantee it’s fresh. I think there is something deep within our ancestral memory that gives you a real buzz from the delayed gratification of eating the fruits of your labours. Not to get all “motorcycle maintenancey” on you, but I think I actually really enjoy making life hard for myself. The hard work in an office is not a patch on the hard work on your own land. Fact. Am I regressing to a more natural, pre-urban state? (*takes a drag on her imaginary cigarette, Carrie Bradshaw style*). Is this such a bad thing?
Or
perhaps this is all just a sign that I am hurtling towards middle age at an
alarming rate. I feel like I have aged about 25 years since arriving here, and
not just from the stress of moving my entire family to the middle of nowhere
and ploughing our life savings into the place to boot. I mean I have easily spent more time pottering in my greenhouse in the past three months than
drinking in a pub in the past three years (although not sure ‘pottering’ is the
right verb to describe the chaos that usually ensues when a toddler is let
loose with some plant pots, a large bag of compost and a watering can!). I have
a CQ (Chutney Quotient) to rival any self-respecting member of the WI. My back
feels like that of a 70 year old after pulling weeds and lugging wood all over
the place (70, incidentally is not that old of course, Dad, if you’re reading)
and I felt genuine, unbridled excitement at the discovery of Lily of the Valley
at the bottom of my garden yesterday. I mean, what’s that all about?! I have to
keep reminding myself that I haven’t actually
retired and I am just on maternity leave….
The sub pub (randomly positioned in an old pig sty) |
Check out my Lily of the Valley! Oh yeah. |
But
as a parting thought, I wanted to tell you a little story about a man called
Wally who used to live near our old house in Hampshire. At 97 years old he had
The Most Immaculate vegetable garden you could imagine and was quite the envy
of the village. Despite losing his wife in 1976, he retained such a zest for
life and living from tending his vegetable patch that it would seem to me that
rather than making you old, growing your own actually keeps you young and ever
optimistic. Here’s hoping!